Excruciating Suffering: My Fight With the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a gloomy weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sudden pain sprang behind my right eye. This was followed by quick shocks, similar to electric shocks. As each class progressed, the pain eased and then came back with greater intensity. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took ibuprofen, but the agony remained unbearable.

The headaches returned repeatedly that fall, and again in spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-on agony in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

This condition often start with intense pain behind a single eye that persists for several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the condition, and males are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches typically begin with sudden, severe pain focused on one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or face perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal bouts; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the absence of long symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the figure dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, similar to many causes, made things more intense. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her attacks as drunken behavior. Support eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to absences during attacks. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Still, the inability to plan life around unpredictable pain took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The earliest description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the topic. They linked the ailment to an evil spirit who attacked his victims' heads.

Ancient healing records suggest bizarre treatments for what some observers would classify as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a distinct disorder, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the first detailed description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by international medical societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major artery that supplies blood to the head. Leading specialists in diagnosing the disorder note this.

In the late 1990s, researchers published the findings of a study for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, published in a major medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains slow. One man's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple operations before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor researched his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other primary head pain conditions, such as migraine, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough history is essential: on which part of the head do signs occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific features such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But many first go to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She thinks dentists still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a helpline during an attack in 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked me through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode eased.

Official guidelines on management advise that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a specific drug delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the attacks of well-known individuals.

But consultant neurologists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the cycle determines the treatment.” Brief cycles with occasional attacks are managed with acute therapy alone. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.

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Natalie Velasquez DDS
Natalie Velasquez DDS

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